It's been about 2 months since I updated my "Pls Teach Me" doujin, and I swear to God that I am still working on it.

I'm not bragging! I have proof!!
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Anyways...I'm sorry thing have been going slow. Recently I received many inquiries on the password to Page 14 of my doujin. I am very happy that so many people support my doujin (despite its incoherency and sidetracking and 49 pages into it there is still no sex = , but I am currently very busy, and have no time replying to these messages. I was stubborn, thinking no matter how busy I am, I should continue to restrict access to that page to avoid trouble, and reply to everyone's messages one by one. But some comments from and changed my opinion, and I have decided to release the link and the password to that page here.

First of all, I have to apologize to . Yes, I have been ignoring your note. It's not because what you said offended me; in fact, I loved it. There was just nothing left for me to say. The only person to blame is myself -- even though I agree with every word you said, I still don't have the courage to re-post that page on DA.

Second, to : thank you very much for giving me your support, I appreciate it very much. Being a creator of art/literature means you have to face criticisms on your work, and be strong enough to withstand the pressure. I will work on that and hope one day I'm strong enough to take any blow on my work XD. Also, if you are not offended by this, then who else should I be afraid of? LOL

As for the real reason why I have hidden this page "under passwords on obscure websites" (direct quote from ~NadiaYar, lol), it has been a long story. The incident had disgusted me so much that I did not want to talk about it back then, but since I'm going to release pg 14, I might as well give everybody a heads-up.

Once there was a fanfiction written about How Kiku raped Yao in WW2. The story itself was fine in my opinion, but someone left a comment that "Nanking was Kiku's love for Yao." This started a nation-wide bashing of the Japan/China pairing within the Chinese APH community, and the unfortunate event with my doujin was merely a sequel to that incident. Many who have flamed me mentioned the Japan/China case, and compared my intention to those who think "Kiku raped Yao because he loved him."

Let me first admit that as a Russia-uke fan, how can I not love raping Ivan? XDDDD However, in "Pls Teach me," I have depicted an event that implied a relation to real history. If it were like any other BL/yaoi stories, and Ivan was merely a character in a historical fiction, shooting me for raping him would be an act of hypocrisy. In normal yaoi stories, characters get raped for the readers' sensual pleasure, but Hetalia characters, although not completely related, are representations of real countries. Even if my depiction could be an accurate representation of the event, no one ought to derive any pleasure from a nation's suffering (or at least not to openly express any excitement, lol. That's the bottom line ). Hetalia's fan base is largely made up of yaoi fangirls, and sometimes it is hard to set the boundaries. I wasn't aware of such boundaries; I was naive to think that a story is only a story, and my depiction was only one-page that people will get over it and look at the big picture. But that was unfortunately not the case.

So, as I got bricked for moral corruption, I angrily wrote about the misunderstanding, locked up the page, and had my first sleepless nights due to non-exam related reasons. "Pls Teach Me a Way to Betray That Person" was intended to be a dark, twisted story. However, because of such unpleasant experience, it has become much funnier than I intended for it to be. I need to thank everyone who supported my doujin to this point. After what happened, I almost terminated this story. But it's because of your support that this doujin has gone as far as 49 pages right now (and I'm working on pg 50-65!).

All right, I definitely talk a lot of craps in my journal. Now let's get down to business:

Although many people encouraged me to re-post that page on DA, I have to say I am not prepared to do so. Over the course I have received way more support than opposition, and I am very sorry to those who wanted to see this page and considered it to be meaningful. It was a very undemocratic decision. I did not intend to be disrespectful to anyone with my drawings, but intention does not guarantee the effect. So, as timid a person as I am, pg 14 will not be posted on DA. However, I will go down the middle route (as all Chinese do, lol): I will post the link and password here.

Here is where I keep the page:
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The password is:
fiatlux

It is the Latin translation of the most well know phrase in Genesis 1:3 -- "Let there be light".

Thank you all very much for reading my BS. Good day~